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October 08, 2009, 5:43pm

More than a decade ago, we were so concerned when 2pac told us Brenda had a baby - today, so does Karen, Monique, LaLa, and the little girl down the street. What if the state passed a law to keep these raggamuffins in the condoms, out the uterus, which generally means off the streets? Just think: Women, and men, should have IQ score greater than 90, be able to read higher than high school level; meaning not too many pauses nor reading like your actually reading off something, both partners should be working at full-time employment for at least 6 months, up-to-date state ID or Drivers’ License, criminal background checks, must I go on? I doubt every parent was at the point in their life where they wanted to be when they had their child, but now people just having children without thinking like it’s a trend. Having children is the new skinny jeans!!!!

Not too long ago, I wonder why a fellow blogger was uninterested in having any children. I have a child so of course I know it’s joyful, however I’m slowly feeling the same way he felt when it comes to having a second one.

I believe God put me here for a purpose, whatever that purpose may be - I have goals and aspirations that I would love to achieve while I’m still with some youth. Everyone’s life is not to be made up of “child is born- goes to school, graduates - gets great job - marries - has kids - raise them - lives happily ever after.” I desire to pursue another happiness and though children are a blessing, it makes the aspiration process slower.

Last year I fell out with my former best friend over her boyfriend. Recently she has contacted me to possibly rebuild our friendship. The first time I talked to her since the falling out she told me that she had been pregnant and had an abortion because she wasn’t ready for anymore children (she already has a son). Then the second time we’ve talked, which was just last week, after all the extra chitterchat, she tells me she’s pregnant. Remembering the last time she said she was, my initial response was, “Again?!” Sorry, nope, no congratulations. Just, “Again?” Long story medium: I rarely talk to her now, but these are the things wrong with this picture (I even tweeted this):

1. Her son’s father is MIA: If you have a relationship like this, I believe you have to carefully screen (and really get to know) the next mate to have kids with, especially if you don’t want to go down that road again. Sometimes it happens, you cannot stop a father from leaving his child.
2. Neither parent has a decent job: From what she says, she makes “okay” money but obviously it’s not enough if she talking about trying to collect unemployment from the job she was fired from. He rarely gets any hours at his.
3. He has 3 children already whose lives he is not seriously involved in. Gold Star for you former friend! Dude is 23, had his first child at 15. Side-eye these guys who say to women: “I don’t know if the child is mine”. That should not stop you. Have you ever heard of a DNA test? Yes, he used that line as an excuse for not taking responsibility of the second one. It’s a shame when women fall for it.
4. They are not married: Everyone does not live the traditional way of raising kids but if you’ve stated you want something different; a family. Why would you bring another child in the world out of wedlock? She mentioned having a wedding. Why didn’t you think about getting married first, then have unprotected sex. Instead you chose to conceive now you have to rush getting married because “you want a family and don’t want to be a babymama with 2 kids”. This is one of the reasons why the divorce rates are so high today.
5. I doubt they are in love: Really like, needing to be with and in love are different things. They met years before, reconnected in June 2008 and now she’s been pregnant by him twice. Since I know what type of emotions this woman carries, I doubt she is in love. She didn’t even mentioned Love. I believe it takes much longer than some time over year to fall in love with someone.
6. One of the reasons she wants to be with him is because he’s good with her son: Being good with/to you should be the first thing. So that’s confirmation that she was just thirsty for a father figure for her son and something to call a family from the get-go. Ladies, stop looking for “babydaddies” for your children.

She keeps in touch with me as if we will become real close as we were. Never. I cut you off so swift and act like you never existed. It’s especially “never” if you get knocked up by a guy I do not like. 

Then I get a call from my cousin who told me my brother will be expecting another child. My sister-in-law posted “her confirmed pregnancy” through a facebook status. Not only was it a shocked because it was my cousin telling me instead of my brother but she’s due in February. Their daughter just turned 1 in August. My thoughts exactly.

Let’s cut to the chase: My sister in law does not work and my brother is providing for everything. One income for a house of 5 now? No. It wasn’t peaches and cream with a house of 3.

So for my dear readers and commenters, let me (a mother) refresh your memory in case you decide this parenting life is for you.

Figure 1. Your money is no longer yours. Well, unless you are a deadbeat (mother or father) who doesn’t pay child support.

Figure 2. Time Management/Balancing
You go to school full-time. If you don’t have a babysitter or full-time support (aka these mothers who throw their children off with the grandmother). You will have to cut out some extracurricular activities… Personally, I have to balance having a social life with motherhood. I don’t always have a babysitter and I never throw my daughter to anybody - Hey, I’ll just have to catch you another time.

Figure 3: The “BabyDoll” Syndrome

I call it the babydoll syndrome because sometimes as parents you look at your child as a possession of such. Trust me. You put the nice name brand clothes on your child so you and others can look back at it. Fathers always feel their son has to look the coolest and mothers feel their daughters has to look the prettiest at times. It’s call an impression. You do it with yourself. To keep this up, you have to have…..

Figure 4: ….extra income. But its not all yours anyway…Revert back to Figure 1.

Figure 5: The other parent. Everything is not perfect.

Figure 6: Stress

In order for your child to consumed the joy in life, you have to be in a good state of mind. Making sure the child is up ready for school while also getting yourself together for your day may be a headache. Getting to know your child’s behavior is something you should be aware of as well. Paying that $100 tuition every month along with the rent, bill and house supplies along with the other can add to stress. If you have a child whose father is MIA, having everything upon your shoulders may be too much as well. My mom and other women succeeded, so ladies keep pushing; doing what you have to do for yours!!!

I’m trying to pursue music and attend school; I cannot drag my daughter to the studio and class, in addition rent has to be paid and I don’t care what they tell you about a B.A., it does not immediately pay the bills. You don’t walk off the stage to a brand new gig, it takes a hunt for it, so right now I have to put other priorities to the side. My daughter’s father and his family are active in her life, however I am her primary caregiver and I make sure the food is on the table and clothes are on our backs. I currently do not have any stress :-), but the point is take care of other things in your life before having a big responsibility as child accompany you, so you won’t feel like it’s a burden.

Aren’t ready for all that yet? He’s ready for you! Think twice. Have a good day!

September 23, 2009, 6:21pm

A friend’s Facebook status….

”.…is so tired of her educated people(w/e race you are) using profanity to their dear loved ones or associates, friends, or w/e. The most unattractive thing about a person can be the language out of their mouth. So to all her friends and loved ones, if you gotta call her out a name, don’t bother to open your mouth to her. You aren’t or never were her friend.Treat yourself right and you’ll attract the right stuff. Peace.”

Bitch is it that serious?! -giggles- Just joking.

But do you agree?
Or do you live with the fact that, ‘that’ is something you were accustomed to since childhood?

Does this take away from your intelligence or are some people in fact a little too sensitive?

Oh, and she’s referring to us as people calling each other Bitch Hoe Nigga case you didn’t know.

                  

Who You Calling A Bitch?

The most common name to degrade women. It’s foul. But what can we do if people, especially men were raised and surrounded by people using these words and whoever receives them accepts them? Back when we were kids, you did some trouble with this and was probably cursed out. Today? These teenaged girls laugh when their male classmates call them this. I hear many men say it’s crazy that women are okay with their female friends calling them Bitch but have a problem when they call them one. No shit sherlock. Your boy can call you a ‘nigga’ but “Ted Patrowski” can’t. I personally distant myself from these words except for - you guessed it, Nigga. Kill me. Blame the rap music. Whatever. Now I get an occasional, “What’s up beyotch” from a female friend, but let’s not get so serious. And I don’t take it serious.

Nigger, or Nigga to all you different folk…

I remember my mother telling me how “back in the day” black people actually stopped saying ‘Nigga’; What happened? A rapper maybe? And please don’t tell me how Tupac made his own acronym. And don’t you hate when rappers say, “oh see, we dropped the ‘er’ at the end and made it ours…”. Black folk don’t correctly pronounce their ‘er’s anyway. Wrong is wrong and unfortunately we use it. Stop making excuses. And people who say/type Ninja in replace sound/look stupid as all fuck.

Remember my censored post? Sh!t is still shit. Why say Ninja then? Just type ‘my homie’ ‘my boy’ ‘this dude’ or something. Trust, its not homo. Thanks.

“Don’t trust a hoe, don’t trust a hoe…cause a hoe won’t trust me….”- 3oh!3

Goes in the same category as bitch but see, ain’t too many females too keen on using that. You okay with being called a bitch but will snap if someone called you a hoe? - like Bitch is of great quality. You’re retarded. Both are foul.

Profuckingfanity.

People may use “curse words” to express emphasis, anger, and/or it just sounds better. Personally, it’s okay until it becomes a turn-off for me when you use it every 2 words. It’s kinda like Milk, I can have a decent amount but not too much. :)

Which one sounds more threatening:

“I’ma kick your fat butt girl!!!” or “I’ma kick your fat ass bitch!” You be the judge.

Hopefully, my friend isn’t talking about profanity period because unless you are an employer, haha, I’m not going to completely stop neither are her other friends. When I first read her status, I disagreed with the ‘you’re not a friend and never were part’. Mind you, this same person randomly says ‘muthafucka’ like it’s one of your nicknames. My comment on the status went between the lines of ‘if I curse or say those things, it has nothing to do with me being educated. I know when to cut it off’.

It also had me thinking, if you don’t like that then fine, if I value my friendship then I won’t say that or act a certain way to or around YOU, however I’m not going to change a minor thing for a friendship that’s really not causing you any harm and if it is, why wait until the 4th or so year of friendship? If that’s the case, profanity should be the least of the flaws we want to change in our friends.

Men, and women, will never stop calling you out of your name; hell, people do it just because you are not what they want you to be. Black people will probably never stop calling each other Nigga. Unfortunately. Let’s recognize real (ignorance perhaps) and not sugar coat. We won’t stop cursing. How can you change something like that when your mother’s been cursing around you for the longest? Not saying you have to do what your parents do but it’s kind of like for your kid’s whole life you put them in public school and when the fucker’s 17, you want him to spend his last year at a private school, thinking he’ll get better schooling. Yeah, right.

p.s. Nigga, Hoe, Bitch, Coon, Cracker. People will call you what they see fit, a lot of times it doesn’t fit and they just choose to call you that. But if everyone is always calling you a bitch, hoe or a nigga, whether they are a friend or not, which you have to make a statement about it, obviously your attitude/aura doesn’t demand respect. People will know right off what they’re dealing to not even go there, and if they want to, they’ll just think that of you and what someone thinks should be the last of your worries.

September 15, 2009, 6:06pm

The Fuck?

People still promote this type of ignorance?

The Black race among all is probably the only that has an extensive case of self-hate and it’s pitiful. I believe this attitude came from slavery if you ask me. You remember how you were told Massa only breeded with black women, all of what he dated was white or damn near? So teach all that in school, put it in books to read, broadcast this on television for society and you see what you’ve done…

You got these losers I’m following on Twitter filling my timeline up with darkskin & lightskin hashtag topics!

Black people are so quick to get offensive and yell out racism whenever we feel we’ve been mistreated but a week later call someone of a darker skin tone “a darkbutt”.

It is a shame because in 2006, I, myself, was cracking semi-serious jokes about giving birth to a child of light/fair complexion. My daughter is 2 shades lighter than me while her father is damn near charcoal. My mother, who is 1 tone away from being lightskin, used to jokingly call me prejudice. Me describing all these skin tones like this is so fucked up. You think Africans and Indians debate on shit like shades of color? I love myself of course, but blame society for feeding us the nonsense that lightskin is prettier. And yes, all light-skinned women do believe this unfortunately. Even obese, dumb lightskinned women with bad acne and big sloppy ass titties has taken society’s opinion as a boost in their confidence. I guess all that is better than a decent looking darkskinned girl with something going for herself huh?

Growing up in the 90s, all my fave artists (particularly Immature) had the teenaged LSLH* model play lead role, they had celebrity crushes on only LSLH artists and that’s basically all you saw as far as singers of that time. When light-skinned men got apparently “played-out”, darker skinned men so called “took over” as far as for sex appeal and that has since become the ideal cute black couple ever since: the handsome dark black man and the skinny *light-skinned longhaired woman.

We’ve all dealt with this. Don’t get it twisted, yes, you can have a preference but when you start feeling a little Michael Jackson’ish and desire to be “something else” besides Black; Or when you criticize your own, judge, and/or your own is not up to your standards then you may be dealing with self-hate.

Figure 1: Do you think Julio and ‘nem be in the cut dissin’ Miguel in the wife beater ‘cause ‘homes’ is a tad bit lighter than they are?

Figure 2: Your average/celebrity darkskinned brother.

He could have been fed the same bullshit we all were so he feels he NEEDS to date LSLH. It’s also an ego booster for him as well. He thinks like this: “Man, I got this. I got the prettiest, the best. So I’m the best!” Now this is not all men, just that kind of man. Majority of the celebrities and sports stars you constantly see out with the same type of “model” woman. See the expression on that nigga’s face? Now he’s happy!

Figure 3: Yeah, go ahead and take a look at what your “career” could have been.

Moving on…

Figure 3: Marquetta “Punkin” Robinson

This young lady is one of my dearest friends, however I’m coming to realize she, too, has some form of self-hate. She may read my blog but like I’ve stated already: This is my blog and what I should express is real or what I feel, with no disrespect to anyone. With me being around her for almost 5 years, she’s went from Apple Bottom, Baby Phat, etc. to Aeropostale, Ebonics to Proper English, Ford city/Evergreen plaza to only Chicago Ridge and Downtown, etc. Now I have converted to those same things as well, but wait there’s more:

1. She doesn’t date black men, only prefers white (or maybe latino) men because “black men only want to be thugs”.
2. Doesn’t listen to rap or R&B often. Hangs with only those black people who act white or ‘non-ghetto’. So quick to get offended of a racist white man, but hey this is what she wants.
3. I think she’s a little too critical of black people and overexaggerates stereotypes of black people, especially men. For the most part, she has had low self-esteem and feel that her type of man can make her happy. I don’t know how because a white man won’t always understand you as a black woman.

I’ve told her before that she may miss out on the man who completely adores her because she’s paying attention to what race he is. Just because the African-American percentages of good quality of things are or maybe low, does not mean it doesn’t happen in other races. White men cheat too; They are poor; They leave their children’s mother. I really didn’t care about her “self-hate” until the other day she was discussing her male friend (yes, he’s white) wanting to have full custody of his son. She states how she’s relieved the child is 11 years old because she doesn’t want to be bothered with any problems coming from a mother a man may face with a very young child.

Here’s the killer: “You know, then his babymama’s black, soooo ya know I don’t wanna go through that babymama drama”.

The fuck? I’m Black and yes I am a “baby’s mother”. I don’t give my daughter’s father any drama. Whatever I am unhappy with, yes I let him know but when women do that, let’s not always call it what it is not.

I responded to this because I realized she believes that all black women start drama or are involved in it. When I told her that just because someone’s “babymama” is black doesn’t mean she gives him drama, she agreed as ‘I know’. No, you don’t know because if “you knew” you wouldn’t have initially said that. That is something an Indian, White, Asian woman would say, not a Black woman, so I feel she since she’s distanting herself from her true self (black), obviously she too, like the races mentioned, has nothing to believe but stereotypes.

I’ll tell you like this: No matter how light you are, you are still Black. Think not? Ask that white police officer pulling you over. While you are possibly burning bridges with your darker brothers and sisters, move into a complete white neighborhood. Trust me, they won’t have your back and they don’t give a damn how light you are. They still see Black and it’s unfortunate that you don’t want to see it.

September 03, 2009, 6:23pm

(The following chat is based on a true story.)

My daughter: It’s that for you?

Me: Yes.

My daughter: Is that a diaper?

-dead-

It’s that time of the month and you have to debate on whether to stick something up your ass or be lazy and let your vagina and pantie towel play catch. I’ve ALWAYS [no pun intended :)] hated maxi-pads. I don’t know if it was the fact of being active where my thigh mashed it together where it messed up or just feeling uncomfortably. 

Figure 1: I feel like, kinda when a lot of men say how they prefer boxers over briefs because they need the air, the space. Well that’s me. I need a belt if I’m going to use that shit or it’ll be somewhere in the back of my pants when I go pee.

Not to be too personal but….may the maxi-pad die. It doesn’t feel too good especially when you’ve shaped yourself up from a “german sherpard” to a “poodle”, if you get what I mean…

That “poodle” is about as sensitive as a baby ass, not only should you be careful for any infection lingering but imagine the irritation and pain that baby feels when its touched by a hard ass generic pamper. 

  +  = 

Figure 2: A shaved vagina area with little pubic hair mashed up against you. The SOS pad represents that feeling. This is very irritating to me.

I don’t know why I decided to post this, maybe this being the first time in a long time me using pads. Yuck! Many women don’t care for tampons. Long Live The Tampon! Different strokes for different folks, I guess…It must be just me. When I ponder up something else to share with you about this subject, trust me I will.

August 06, 2009, 6:12pm

No, not Herpes. You’re lucky.

photo source: yes, that’s me circa mid-90s. Look at the drapes.

It’s my wonderful choice to used the First Amendment to all (well, most) of its ability as you will see on this blog. As we move on, it’s not in my desire to make you feel as if I am a negative or ignorant person. In my posts, you will see profanity or me talk about things that are natural. Though you may not agree, it’s still natural. “I’m talking a shit” is natural. No, you won’t read that but I’m giving a heads up. I do not have to prove to anyone that I am intelligent, articulate, can spell and can converse ( I should have typed conversate for you, huh?) with anyone on any matter without having to use profanity.

-Updated 1:28am- Many people are half-assing things. For instance, people who prefer ‘Sh!t’ over Shit and think they are censoring themselves when they really aren’t. Why use that/those letters at all? People will still read it as SHIT. I’m going to give it to you straight or not at all, like your grandmother would.

If you are a tad bit too sensitive, you may re-route yourself to Rev. Run’s positive, inspirational tweets on Twitter…. This is MY blog. Happy Thursday!

July 30, 2009, 7:07pm

Kelis & Nas in the Niggerest happier times

In recent news, singer Kelis took rapper Nas’ ass to the cleaners because this NIGGER didn’t want to play nice.

In the last week this has been the topic of blogs and of course opinions are flying like crows. What I don’t get is after all high-profile divorces and settlements (Michael Jordan anyone?) people still act like they never knew the courts favored women. Or that you are entitled to a percentage of what a man makes for child support.

You getting $85 per month from $9.50 every hour ass Rodney does not apply to this percentage.

People make me sick jumping to assumptions without getting proper details hell, I do it too but so what…

When are we just going to be unbiased for a chance?

Kelis is such a horrible person now because this fool didn’t look himself in the mirror and see a man. He saw NIGGER and decided it would be best to be selfish and ignorant to his wife. THIS FOOL GAVE HER $350 and GIFT CARDS!!!! Was Kelis a horrible person when they both were happily married and showing off their NIGGER jackets? No, and you didn’t give a shit then.

Of course men will be upset at the 55k order. They’re men. It’s natural. We don’t know a what a man goes through or how a man feels in a case like this, however women even disagreed with the settlement.

Are you fucking serious? How do you know 55k is too much? Because YOU and [insert ghetto child name here] still live in [insert poverty strickened or low-class neighborhood here] where it doesn’t cost much to lease an apartment and it’s not expensive to go to Rainbow and buy your baby’s clothes? So your budget makes it “too much” for another woman to get what she needs, even if it’s more than your assets and expenses. Kiss my ass!

Now women get aid, medical care and food stamps, but let them not get child support, they raise all type of hell. Some of you are some wishy-washy unstable creatures. Let a woman get her just-due. Let’s see, you’re with a man who’s making a 6 figure income, you leave him and fight for child support, are you going to tell the judge,

“Please don’t, those thousands are just too much, just give me the regular default. $200!”

My thoughts exactly. BITCH PLEASE.

Then you have the women who put it down our throats that they take care of their children by themselves. Who gives a fuck? Not to be harsh, but women can’t keep using their unfortunate misfortune (like that, don’t you?) to get a higher step on the pedestal. Women have been taking care of their children by themselves for a loooooong time. Your new school ass didn’t start this. But see, our society believes that a single mother holds so much power and grace that it has been installed in your immature mind it’s great to be a single mother. You can tell those type of women though. Any woman who practically demands to be acknowledged on Father’s Day is that woman. Father’s Day is for Fathers, not for any voids a woman just so happens to fill.

Anywhoo, as I was reading Necole Bitchie’s blog about this Nas & Kelis fiasco, a few commenters among the opposition summed up my opinion best about this as possible. This is not about Nas & Kelis, it’s about man & woman.

From girl named “Sparkle”…

“Why are some of you women so proud of taking care of your kis w/out any help from the fathers? Put those men on child support(if you can find them). Your not a strong woman. Your a dummy whose not holding that man responsible. Get it together ladies. It seems like women don’t expect anything out of black men anymore, but then get upset at women who do expect better. Our community is all fucked up.”

Commenter Monichris

“Any woman who doesn’t insist a man pay child support is a fool and weak. I for one refuse to carry my responsibilities AND the fathers too.”

Commenter Peaches

“Just ignorant. Just because your daddy wasn’t isht and didn’t pay child support, you expect everybody other black woman to struggle. NOT. Good for Kelis. If Nas didn’t want to pay child support, he should have kept it zipped and been faithful to his wife. Now he has to pay and should STFU, quit whining like a sissy, write his checks, and be accountable for his trifling, irresponsible lifestyle.”

Commenter Intitled

“They are both idiots. And yes a woman should work and that’s what most woman do in the REAL world!!!!! but for some reason men think that once they’ve paid the court ordered child support that’s it financially.. Are you serious? In the average single parent house hold the child support given isn’t even enough, not to mention the other activities that cost MONEY which falls on the mother most of the time. Nas is a dick and Kelis is an ungrateful whore. This chick has so much talent and what is she doing with it? why does the court have to force a man to take of of his child? and why should a woman have to work hard and struggle while the man is living care free?? Fuckin pathetic…. “

I think all this anger men possess with child support issues comes from the man’s ego; he can’t have something, anything being taken away from him, whether it’s a woman, materialistics, etc. Sooooo, he becomes selfish, stubborn and helpless since he feels this way, in turn, if you’re an ex to this type of man he sure in hell doesn’t want to share his money with you.

July 30, 2009, 6:33pm

“A babymama???!!”

“Yeah girl, let’s drink to that!”

THE FUCK?!!!

babymama |bābē,mah-muh| (noun)

A term used to define an unmarried young woman (but can be a woman of any age) who has had a child. As mentioned before in another definition, most of the time it is used for when it was simply a sexual relationship, compared to ex-wife or girlfriend. Usually this has a negative connotation, a lot of baby mamas are seen as desperate, gold digging, emotionally starved, shady women who had a baby out of spite or to keep a man. Sometimes they may act like this because of missed child support payments, unfulfilled promises by the father, or convenient sex by the father. Either or both may exist in any situation.

See, there are a lot of these “nouns” across the world, the word itself makes real women like myself feel like such a fucking adjective.

I don’t even say ‘my babydaddy’.

Don’t get it twisted, I don’t look at myself better than those that use it. If I’m talking to my ghetto co-worker then yeah, I want to hurry up and get my point across and say it, but how do I look having conversations with other people especially outside my race, which I normally do, and say, “You know, my babydaddy….”

Figure 1: My employer.

See he doesn’t even know what the hell that is…

The average lost black girl in the ghetto I am not.

But males on the other hands feel the need to always use ‘babymama’. Not even baby’s mother???!!! I remember at my babyshower, my brother was talking to me and my ex-boyfriend about not getting used to the terms. Of course, this nigga right here next to me didn’t understand. But I really didn’t get what my older brother meant until a couple of years ago when I was in the car with my daughter’s father and he introduced me to one of his former UPS co-workers as ‘my babymama’. It hit me as not only am I really a mother now from someone’s else view, but the shit sounds terrible from somebody’s mouth.

YOU + =  

Figure 2: You are still without a ring

Many young males believe having children makes them a man for some weird ass reason. A babymama is just his possession of proof of that ideal manhood. Hopefully one day, my younger brothers will understand it is not. You just happened to get someone pregnant and you added to the epidemic of black stereotypes.

• Babymamas depend on babydaddies too much
• They hold little to no value to the man’s life,
• The clubs are more important
• The grandmother semi-raises the child
• She sits and complains about a babydaddy
• Majority of the time, she still wants to be involved with a man and continues to latch herself on to him because of the child, even though he shows her he doesn’t want her.

Yes, you can say it, but a real woman knows her worth. She knows what’s more important. To honest, the mother of a child’s life takes a pause just to make sure that little one is okay.

My daughter’s dad hangs with some immature people. You think he’s not going to be immature? It rubs off people. However, when he speaks to me, that goofy shit is out the window. He talks to me like a woman, the mother of his child. Good. He sees that. And now I see I’m not the same naïve person I was in 2005.

I actually want two other children and I wish a nigga would…..well, he won’t, cause I’ll be their father’s wife and he’ll refer to me as something other than the connection to his kids.

July 30, 2009, 6:32pm

I had another Tumblr called coolaura. Shit was wack…

It was all of whatever personal life I was to share but I stopped updating out of boredom. You ever read blogs and at first it was interesting then the asshole starts rambling about whatever? Posting only pictures, video and shit just to make a post? Now that’s a bored-blog motherfucker. They do that, then after awhile they say screw the whole blog. I actually like blogging. I’ve had a Wordpress, Blogger and even that LiveJournal bullshit when I was in my 1st year of college. Even if you don’t care to read this, I can look back and keep myself interested. However, I just found what transitions and experiences I did want to share and figured of a way to share those thoughts without going into long ass stories.

Tumblr didn’t allow me to make this new one my default so I’m currently in the process of COPY AND PASTE, everything from the other to a brand new default blog…gimme a break.

Originally, I’m a 24 year old Southside Chicagoan whose life consists of squeezing a 3 year old’s ass into some 4T capris and Children’s Place apparel and heading off to a daycare and an 8-3pm work shift. I’m real as they come and expect the same. I’m not a golddigger, bitch (in your definition), garden tool, etc. I’m not any type of term you want to call a woman who doesn’t hold the same beliefs as you. I’ve been through a lot in my life but I don’t sit and complain about the shit (e.g. Like these people —-> “I grew up without a daddy!!!!” —-who gives a fuck? 87.619% of the black community did as well). I’m the person who can’t wait til Karma kicks your ass, however when it does, I won’t receive any happiness from your pain. Hypocritical huh? I have my shit together so if while reading you see I talk a lot of shit, believe when I look in my bank account I can afford to. Maybe THIS will keep me at a steady core. This should be interesting.

July 30, 2009, 6:25pm